I've seen so much posts about, "Would you want to be a kpop idol?" I think they're just lowkeying that they themselves would want to be one. So I'm going to be straightforward about this.
I want to be a Kpop Idol. Of course I know this is going straight to your heads like, "You have no chance at all?" How do you think idols got there in the first place? They auditioned. If they can do it, then why can't others? People usually say you have the smallest chance on Earth if you want to be one. Of course I do, do you think I'm taking this as a joke? No. I know it's going to be hard to get into something everyone would want to, but that doesn't mean it's impossible. I don't like others that tell me it's impossible. It it's impossible, then how did others achieve it? I just want you guys to know that I am taking this seriously.
This had occurred to me right when I was introduced to Kpop. (I was introduced by my friend) I felt as if that would be a career that sounded enjoyable. (I know how hectic it is, but that doesn't mean it doesn't have its good sides to it.) No I don't want to do this because my "favorite groups" are doing it. I want to do it because I want to do it.
Not too sound too cocky, but I feel that I could endure the hectic life of Kpop, or atleast handle whatever is thrown at me. I've been through many, not so good, situations. I feel that I can endure the life of a Kpop Idol if I can endure the past that I had. I can dance too, I've been in dance class because my mom had put me in there since I was atleast 10. (I'm 15) Now I know you guys will tell me this is the age where you dream of being an idol blah blah, yes I'm aware of all of your reactions to this. But I imagine myself still wanting to do this at 18. I also don't find myself to be unattractive? (Atleast in my eyes of course) I have eyelids, tall nose, big eyes, Slim face shape, asian of course, blah blah, you guys probably don't care about my appearance, but I'm positive those judges do.... (sadly)
But the thing is. I don't know when to start doing. I am always talking and never doing. I don't know how I'm going to explain this to my parents. My father wants me to be a pharmacist. I can't do that because that is not a career I want to pursue in, nor do I want to do for the rest of my life. My father is always telling me, Go to college, and get married. He is the most typical Asian dad you will ever meet. He wants me to be happy, YES I understand, but I can't be happy doing something I don't want to do? He is also a very serious man, and doesn't let me do things if he hasn't been through it. I understand his mentality because he's constantly reminding me about what I should do when I turn 18, and what school I should be going to after High School. I feel that I am stuck in a bubble that my dad has kept and I can't talk him out of it. I haven't even told him what I want to do because I'm scared of his reaction. He probably won't even let me have the chance to audition.. If I can't get past there then I'm not sure what to do. I've been getting bad headaches because I'm always thinking about what I should do. Should I wait until I'm 18 and tell them? Should I go without telling them? Should I tell them straightforward ? I'm scared because I've seen arguments with my oldest sister and my dad because of how she's been doing at school and why she hasn't applied for nursing schools. My sister ends up crying because my dad is harsh on us. My dad and I are very distant even though we live with eachother. We never talk nor do we exchange eye contact unless he needs help with something, or if he's asking me how I've been doing at school. The only person I feel comfortable discussing this is you guys, and my mother. But in the end, it'll be up to my dad. I'm asking you guys too because I want to know what I should say to my dad, and how to counter his words. There are much more many obstacles too, which block me from my dreams. I can't even get near an audition because I am too far from any of those spots. (I live in the South)
Now I know this isn't the only option of what to do in life, I would go for a computer career if I fail auditions or something, but I refuse to go to college until I have the chance to audition. I never knew even auditioning would be tough to do. Would I even have a chance at this because I can't even get close to auditions? This is always rolling around in my head everyday. Another constant worry is my age. I want to audition at 18, but I feel that I also have such little time because 18 is at the peak of auditioning.
What should I do? Should I change my idea of what I want in the future? I just want to hear your responses and tips on what I should do.You guys could change my perspective on my dream, or even not to pursue it at all. I just want your honest feelings. Try to put yourself in my shoes.
"Once in a while it really hits people that they don't have to experience the world in the way they have been told."
I want to be a Kpop Idol. Of course I know this is going straight to your heads like, "You have no chance at all?" How do you think idols got there in the first place? They auditioned. If they can do it, then why can't others? People usually say you have the smallest chance on Earth if you want to be one. Of course I do, do you think I'm taking this as a joke? No. I know it's going to be hard to get into something everyone would want to, but that doesn't mean it's impossible. I don't like others that tell me it's impossible. It it's impossible, then how did others achieve it? I just want you guys to know that I am taking this seriously.
This had occurred to me right when I was introduced to Kpop. (I was introduced by my friend) I felt as if that would be a career that sounded enjoyable. (I know how hectic it is, but that doesn't mean it doesn't have its good sides to it.) No I don't want to do this because my "favorite groups" are doing it. I want to do it because I want to do it.
Not too sound too cocky, but I feel that I could endure the hectic life of Kpop, or atleast handle whatever is thrown at me. I've been through many, not so good, situations. I feel that I can endure the life of a Kpop Idol if I can endure the past that I had. I can dance too, I've been in dance class because my mom had put me in there since I was atleast 10. (I'm 15) Now I know you guys will tell me this is the age where you dream of being an idol blah blah, yes I'm aware of all of your reactions to this. But I imagine myself still wanting to do this at 18. I also don't find myself to be unattractive? (Atleast in my eyes of course) I have eyelids, tall nose, big eyes, Slim face shape, asian of course, blah blah, you guys probably don't care about my appearance, but I'm positive those judges do.... (sadly)
But the thing is. I don't know when to start doing. I am always talking and never doing. I don't know how I'm going to explain this to my parents. My father wants me to be a pharmacist. I can't do that because that is not a career I want to pursue in, nor do I want to do for the rest of my life. My father is always telling me, Go to college, and get married. He is the most typical Asian dad you will ever meet. He wants me to be happy, YES I understand, but I can't be happy doing something I don't want to do? He is also a very serious man, and doesn't let me do things if he hasn't been through it. I understand his mentality because he's constantly reminding me about what I should do when I turn 18, and what school I should be going to after High School. I feel that I am stuck in a bubble that my dad has kept and I can't talk him out of it. I haven't even told him what I want to do because I'm scared of his reaction. He probably won't even let me have the chance to audition.. If I can't get past there then I'm not sure what to do. I've been getting bad headaches because I'm always thinking about what I should do. Should I wait until I'm 18 and tell them? Should I go without telling them? Should I tell them straightforward ? I'm scared because I've seen arguments with my oldest sister and my dad because of how she's been doing at school and why she hasn't applied for nursing schools. My sister ends up crying because my dad is harsh on us. My dad and I are very distant even though we live with eachother. We never talk nor do we exchange eye contact unless he needs help with something, or if he's asking me how I've been doing at school. The only person I feel comfortable discussing this is you guys, and my mother. But in the end, it'll be up to my dad. I'm asking you guys too because I want to know what I should say to my dad, and how to counter his words. There are much more many obstacles too, which block me from my dreams. I can't even get near an audition because I am too far from any of those spots. (I live in the South)
Now I know this isn't the only option of what to do in life, I would go for a computer career if I fail auditions or something, but I refuse to go to college until I have the chance to audition. I never knew even auditioning would be tough to do. Would I even have a chance at this because I can't even get close to auditions? This is always rolling around in my head everyday. Another constant worry is my age. I want to audition at 18, but I feel that I also have such little time because 18 is at the peak of auditioning.
What should I do? Should I change my idea of what I want in the future? I just want to hear your responses and tips on what I should do.You guys could change my perspective on my dream, or even not to pursue it at all. I just want your honest feelings. Try to put yourself in my shoes.
"Once in a while it really hits people that they don't have to experience the world in the way they have been told."